Medical Update – Shoulder Surgery & Radiation Results

We spent a Saturday evening in Chicago celebrating the 40th birthday of our bestie, Corey. (Shout out to Corey! He is the reason we ended up dating and getting married.) Dan had just enough energy to live it up and enjoy being with friends.

So this guy likes to keep me on my toes. Wednesday Dan will have surgery for a complete shoulder replacement. First thing I know is that his shoulder hurt while golfing, and then all of the sudden we are in for a matrix bionic shoulder.

Ok, that might be extreme, but I have seen the sling he will need to use and it kind of makes him look like Robocop anyway. I am anxious about his recovery. He has had some serious fatigue the last few weeks. I think it is a cumulative effect from being on a full three months of Alcensa. (Maybe radiation related too? It’s no cake-walk for the body.)

My primary anxiety is the thought of him getting any sort of infection during surgery, after surgery, etc. So just keep us in your thoughts.

During all of his pre-op appointments, Dan did follow up with our oncology team which included the radiologist. His bloodwork continues to be good on Alcensa. His MRI showed the round of targeted radiation three monthsh ago accomplished its task, so we are good to go for the next while. Go ahead and pop your champagne.

I don’t really know what to say. I am caught in an awkward place of loving this man with everything inside of me and also thinking of his physiology; the risks of everything and the impact of every decision. I know we are so lucky to even be able to address something that is a source of pain for him and allow him to have surgery. I am also devestated by the conclusion that the majority of the deterioration of his shoulder is due to the steroids over the past three years. Damn cancer. But how can I complain about one deteriorated joint? I grieve so often for young ALKs like Dan who have lost their lives.

This is a wild place to exist in–this stage 4 lung cancer reality. I often look at him and don’t realize what has happened—it is just him. But more times than not, I am taking it all into a full account. I risk sounding moody and gloomy for the fact that I feel I have to give an honest account of our journey. It is ours alone, after all. Just us.

Please keep us in your thoughts this week.


Sunday , Sunday – Edition 2

Happy Puppy Superbowl Day! Did you see that Kitty Half Time Show!?!?!


Things that made me smile the last two weeks … What made you smile?

  1. Having drinks with my neighbor and friend, Taylor, Friday. We used some of my mom’s glasses from the hutch collections to sip our blueberry sour lambic. She helped me untangle ribbon for the gift boxes. We talked about anything and everything while the kids played. You know, adulthood?
  2. Raine describing the new business to his buddy: My mom got a business. She makes boxes (gesturing to them). She puts little surprises inside and when people open them, they’re like, “WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAOOOOOOOOAAAAAAHHHHHH!” Should I make that my tag line?
  3. The sun. I know everyone here thinks it is so gloomy and awful in the winter, but OMG THE SUN. There is so much sunlight through the winter! Oregon truly is vampire land. (Don’t get me wrong–I still miss home.)
  4. Berry. I can’t have a baby so I got a hamster. Every time I see her, she makes me smile. She’s just so darn cute!!! She is usually in Raine’s bedroom but I like to bring her out and sit her next to me while I’m at the computer. She performs parkour sometimes. Just like Raine.
  5. My dad and I built our first wooden box together and it took two hours. We ended up with a smaller box than intended because we couldn’t figure out what we were doing wrong when it didn’t fit right. We kept cutting until I wondered if we were going to have anything left? We slept on it and both realized we should have had a design planned. Regardless, he fixed it.
  6. I finally put a bookcase together for our bedroom. I KNOW. ISN’T THIS EXCITING STUFF. If you can believe it, I still feel like I am moving in and trying to get settled–after 8 months. There have been stages to move through learning how to make the space ours and honor my mom while packing some things away or using them ourselves. It’s tricky. Anyway, as I accomplish parts of nesting, it makes me smile. And I think she would like what I have done.
  7. Watching Dan read. It fills my heart up. We both read voraciously as children and young adults. Somewhere in life, though, you get busy as you get older and it is easy to lose that habit. I’ve said it before that he has enjoyed reading more since his diagnosis. He read at chemo treatments and now that he is using disability and not working, he reads so much. And he is fast. He just finished The Ocean at the End of the Lane by Neil Gaiman (he recommends it) and is currently reading Juliet, Naked by Nick Hornby.

    I have been unsuccesful in 2018 but these are some of my reads and a re-read from 2017. Mostly I recommend Between the World and Me, Two or Three Things That I Know for Sure, Constance, and Bees of Mist. ( Bio/NF from black male perspective, BIO/NF from female lesbian perspective, poetry from female with mental illness perspective, and a super great dose of magical realism.) Oh, and Nat Geo. That’s my go-to bedtime read. Extraordinary.
  8.  Phoebe Bridgers. I can’t stop with Stranger in the Alps. 24/7. Repeat, repeat. DAN REMEMBER TO GET ME THE VINYL FOR MY BIRTHDAY.
  9. My first delivery for the business. HIGH FIVE. And the web site is near completion. Take a sneak peek.
From the Comfort Collection: Blue Heron, in Luxe. A thoughtful gift from one friend to another after the loss of her mother.




Sunday, Sunday – Edition 1


We survived another week! Time for another.

Things that made me smile … What made you smile?

  1. The kindness and generosity of somone who is going to help us get Hobbes treatment to remove the tumor on his tummy.
  2. Creating a new playroom for Raine so that he can pretend he is an American Ninja Warrior.
  3. Vegan cookies from Cyd’s. My options are thin for a dairy allergy, so when in Peoria … Buy 4 cookies and live large! ( I would share a photo…But you know it! I ate them so fast.)
  4. Catching up with friends. Celebrity name drop! TAYLOR BLACK. JON BYLER DAN. ALLYSON PATTERSON.
  5. The support of my Dr. Singh and K. Bailey to find a way to coupon it UP and score me my $600 generic Abilify for $24. (Hint: This involves using the interwebs and Costco.) If it weren’t for them, and Dan’s support, I would have not tried the med. But this new tiny 5 mg is making a huge difference. We think.
  6. Sympathy cards in the mail for the loss of my Aunt Joan. You might not think people still appreciate a card in the mail — but we do.
  7. I finished a puzzle. First one from my wish list of Eboo puzzles. Time to save up for #2.
  8. I love me some Pinterest but every once in a while? A magazine, posterboard, and tape is so gratifying. Call me old fashioned.
  9. I have 8 orders for my gift box hobby before even sharing the link to the order form or information about them. It looks like it is time to launch the biz..! Like, in the next 24 hours. Valentine’s Day will be here fast.
  10. My husband. Just him. I smile always in my heart while it bursts with love.


A recent new baby gift box I designed. Hoping to meet baby and visit mama + daddy this week!!!




Dearest Don Raine – This Was 2017

In early January at Glendale, where your Great Uncle Russell was laid to rest. You never knew him. I can tell you he was very quiet and kind. He was a devout Christian, served in the military and enjoyed hunting, camping, fishing, and woodworking. I thought it would be cool one day to have a cabin by a lake like he did. I knew if I had a son, I wanted him to be a scout like Uncle Russ, and I also always keep gum in the car that I share with you and your friends and cousins because he did that. It’s funny what you remember and what part of people stay with you.

I regret that I didn’t write and share photos more in 2017 in this special space. The loss of Grandma Mary at the end of 2016 extinguished a spark in my heart. I worried that the spark could never return. I now know that her death changed me, Leah, as I know myself, evermore. It feels like I had to get used to this new version of me all year long. If you should lose a physical part of yourself–this is what I imagine it would feel like. How does one begin to live anew without want for what was lost? A leg, hands, sight, or hearing?

I find my motivation to keep going and learn how to live this new way comes from the truth that I am not alone. I do feel alone in grief. However I try to focus on the logic that there is a togetherness for us all. As humans we hurt, despair, weep, disbelieve. And if any other human can feel what I feel and keep going? Well, then I can, too. So that is what I can tell you about this year for me. It probably sounds horribly depressing, but you have to find the hope I have there inside it. The spark.

2017 began in a wake of grief, and 2018 will, too. But let’s keep going. There are joyful moments yet ahead.

Your first successful bike ride without training wheels was accomplished one cold but sunny afternoon in February. Daddy helped you practice without the training wheels all afternoon on the back patio and driveway of our little white rental house in Morton. By August, you would have grown two inches so we gave you a surprise upgrade for your birthday. (I am not going to lie that I shed a tear at retiring the Cars bike. It was gifted to you by the Seeds of Hope foundation back home in Oregon during daddy’s toughest treatments.)

In 2017 – Daddy solidified his place as your best friend. You would never admit this; daddy might not even agree. You spend more time with daddy than anyone else. Because he is now a stay-at-home dad, he keeps your world in order. He cooks your meals and is your chauffeur, supervises your schooling and makes sure you do your homework, takes you out for adventures, plays video games with you, and also steadfastly continues to count down from 300 every night to help you fall asleep. Already in your short life, he has taught you what you need to look for in a best friend: devotion, humor, and companionship. We are still working on the quality of compromise.

You likely will not remember it, but we spent an incredible day together – just the two of us – in Bandon, Oregon in April. It was a birthday trip for daddy and he spent the day golfing. We explored and played. I had enough energy and relished every moment. This is a rare split second where you sat still while we were at the Bandon South Jetty Park. That is a view of the Pacific and Coquille River Lighthouse.

In 2017 – You hit your independent stride. By the end of the year, you learned a lot at school but also taught yourself that you can enjoy doing things on your own and take the lead when you want to. You wake extremely early but don’t expect much from us. You enjoy your alone time; talking to yourself in the bathroom, dressing yourself (this part is so entertaining to me), brushing your teeth, and playing by yourself. You are comfortable entering a room of children that you don’t know and making friends. If we let you, you’d already be riding your bike to school by yourself or just getting your drivers license already so you can go to your cousin’s whenever you want. You taught yourself how to play more video games and puzzles. You LOVE word searches. You strongly believe that you know everything about everything, especially now that you learn more in school. You inform me when your artwork is pointillism, about the traumatic plight of the pilgrims, and the right way to sing songs. Most exciting for daddy and I? Your ability to read on your own. You grew leaps and bounds with your reading this year. I’m a little proud to brag that you read at an intermediate level already at the age of 6, along with only 2 other children in your first grade class. You went from reading your first book to us in May (I cried) –Dr. Seuss’ Green Eggs and Ham to plowing through chapter books like the popular Captain Underpants series by Dav Pilkey. (And don’t EVEN ask me why adults want to CENSOR this book from children like you. Goodness gracious. These are the times.) We have throughly enjoyed the pleasure of telling you that you may read in bed until you fall asleep, when you are unwilling to stop after we read as a family, or because you are just having a hard time falling asleep! I also cried the first time that I walked in to check on you and you were asleep with a book on your chest. Clearly, daddy and I value reading.

However, looking ahead to this new year, we’ve got a squad goal: greater independence in the kitchen. Daddy and I tend to spoil you by serving you like we are your slaves. Let’s get you making your own bowl of cereal for crying out loud.

The 2nd annual Herzing pumpkin pick during our time at Grandpa and Grandma Herzing’s camper at Apple Canyon near Galena, Illinois. We join G&G, Uncle Doug & Aunt Rita, and JD and Nate. Daddy took you throughout the summer to the lake, but I didn’t have the energy to join until fall. FYI – you are in love with your youngest cousin. One of your favorite things in the world is to make ‘baby Nate’ laugh. Your cousins –JD, Nate, Logan, and Lexi, have become your world now that we live in Illinois. It is part of what makes my heart know it was worth such a tough move.

In 2017 – You are having the time of your life. I am amazed at how much FUN you have at your fingertips. Dare I say, you are super privileged. You’ve got a crew of neighbor kids to run around with, opportunities to travel, go camping, and explore museums and parks, as well as enjoy your hobbies – biking, reading, playing video games, and training to be the next American ninja warrior. We are doing our best to keep it all balanced, as parents our age seem to obsess over. You know, SCREEN TIME. It’s a thing. You are also learning to enjoy food beyond your sweet tooth. We are so proud that you are willing to try anything that daddy cooks or any restaurant we take you to. This is also something parents our age seem to obsess over. PURE, ORGANIC, NATURAL, DON’T EVEN CONSIDER A HOT DOG OR SODA. I think we are teaching you something in between the extremes, but if there is one thing I could name that is maybe the top joy in your life — It’s a serving of ice cream at the end of a long day. Well, actually, ice cream anytime of the day, of course. But ice cream before bedtime is a ritual from my childhood that you gladly embrace today.

In 2017 – There are some tough life questions you are continually contemplating. You are learning what pain, loss, and suffering are. You know daddy has cancer and what different things happen to people when they have cancer. You understand the concept of history and know what war is, which means you are very interested in learning how to discern what is real and pretend. Seeing commercials and knowing more and more people reveal more to you about death, illness, disabilities, and injustice. You process these by observing my lead and then asking questions at random moments where I am so caught off-guard that it almost makes me laugh. I hope you will always talk to me. You also have your cousins who are trying along with you to make sense of these things, and they had to learn about illness and death even earlier than you. Mostly, we show you that there is much to be learned in nature about peace and strength. There is the comfort in the science of our world as well as hope in what is mystical and we just can’t explain. And when we talk about death, we talk about love.


In 2017 – I’m pretty sure I am a solid 2nd place for the best friend category.

I am always treading water as your mother; I get pulled under by my health issues but fight to stay above water for moments where I can be childlike and joyful with you. I give you my best when I have it, and that seems to make you happier than ever. When I don’t have my best, I hope you don’t notice. But I know you do. Still. As your 2nd best friend, you like when I am lying with you and we are cuddling. You appreciate that I take great care with the pain you have in your legs. When you have strong emotions, I don’t ignore them or tell you how you “should” feel. I am willing to help you maybe go a little wild and crazy at times? I have taught you already that a good 2nd best friend is a little wacky, creative, affectionate, and ready to fill in when best friend #1 is down for the count. I’ve got daddy’s back and I’ve got your back, buddy.

When I think about all of these attributes and adventures that have developed and taken place in just this one year for you, it is so unbelievably hard for me to imagine what I would share with you on January 1st, 2019! I am looking forward to more joyful moments. We are so blessed by everyone in our lives and the beauty around us. Here we go…




Talking to Raine About Daddy’s Radiation

Tools for our discussion with Raine about Dan’s radiation appointment.

It was a quiet Monday night. We finished dinner and Raine was anxious to watch the tv show The Voice, his latest obsession (he is rooting for Noah). Rather than head for the living room, I asked him to stay at the table for a talk. I was flying by the seat of my pants in an attempt to tell him about Dan’s radiation appointment the following morning. Dan didn’t even know it was coming.


First, I busted out his creepy puzzle that reveals all of the anatomy of our bodies. It lets Raine place puzzle pieces in layers–skeleton, organs, muscle, and skin, as well as the clothing worn on the outside. (Made by Hape, you can find it here.)

As he put the puzzle together, I told him daddy would have a doctor appointment in the morning that would be radiation for his brain. We looked at the brain piece of the puzzle and I said it would be like super cool lasers as medicine for three places in daddy’s brain.

Holding daddy’s hand on the way to church the day before. We spent the afternoon together walking in Forest Park and playing Nintendo. (Yes, he is rocking plaid on plaid. The kid dresses himself well.)

Second, I had him look at our Kimochis® emotions. (You can find them here.) This is the first time I used them and it went really well. First Dan and I picked ones that showed our emotions about the procedure. Then Raine chose Scared, Shy (he had it equated with feeling uncertain) Grateful, and Loved.

Third, I asked him to help me think of ways that we could help him with his emotions. We made a list for each one:

Scared – Have daddy tell him all about it when it is over and answer any questions Raine has.

Shy – (Uncertain) Hugs before school.

Grateful – Make a thank you card for the surgeon.

Loved – Hugs AND kisses after school.

He made his card for the surgeon and then spent a solid twenty minutes in a competition of throwing the plush emotions from the dining room to the front door as far as he could.

Daddy getting ready for Gamma Knife Radiosurgery at OSF INI in Peoria. The surgeon was Dr. Klopfenstein. (No, there is no knife involved! It is stereotactic radiosurgery using precise beams of gamma rays targeting lesions/tumors.)



On the way to school in the morning, Dan sent us pictures of him getting ready for radiation. Of course Raine wanted to know if it would hurt. We told him no. (The pins Dan would have drilled into his skull would actually be one of the most painful things he has ever experienced. But would you ever let your kid know that? Nope.) We tried to emphasize daddy was fine because he was smiling and looked a little silly. Raine was still scared for Dan, and about it hurting. He told me he hopes he never has radiation. I agreed that I hoped I never would, too.

So the photo backfired…Later that day, I asked Raine how long he was scared or worried and thinking about daddy while at school. He honestly informed me that he did all morning–until his favorite time, recess and lunch. However, that night, even with Dan in bandages all over his head, Raine felt ok because he knew why they were there, Dan answered all of his questions, and Raine received lots of hugs and kisses from mommy.

Having fun with daddy at the Peoria Riverfront Museum. We had a great time all day together on Friday before the appointment.



Raine is 6. He is very aware of how we act and what we talk about when we think he isn’t listening. He is picking up more references to cancer–particularly during the 2,000 commercials about cancer drugs during one episode of The Voice. Dan and I had the equivalent of scanxiety x 1,000 leading up to radiation and everyone can feel that–even Rocco, who paced and howled more than usual.

I want Raine to know when Dan is having treatments and help Raine understand what will happen. I want him to be prepared. I want him to feel included. This is big stuff, after all. Big stuff I would rather he not have to deal with–but this is our family and our journey.


Medical Update Update – Some Zapping

Classic doctor office wait.

I suppose I could have waited one day for the update, but for once I wasn’t on top of my game and didn’t even realize there was an appointment this morning at the gamma knife center. I thought Dan was only getting an MRI, but he was actually discussing the results of last Tuesday’s MRI.

The decision is to perform targeted radiation. The focus is three areas, two of which could have been remnants of his original mets that were initially treated when Dan had whole brain radiation. The third is the spot we recently decided to watch more closely. This doctor wants to target it now and not wait and watch.

Radiation. Dan calls it zapping. I believe it is a good choice to zap right now…But again, change is hard so I’m doing my best to be brave.

Medical Update: More MRIs and Stopping Chemo

Taking a nap while the nurse tries to fix his clogged port. After an hour, she could flush it but still not draw blood. He will have to have it worked on again next time. Despite stopping chemo, he will still keep his port because of frequent blood draws.

“And one has to understand that braveness is not the absence of fear but rather the strength to keep on going forward despite the fear.” – Paulo Coelho

Based on MRI results in August, we spoke with our new radiation oncologist, Dr. Mackenzie McGee with OSF, as well as the opinion of Dr. James L. McGee, and have increased the frequency of these scans and now have them at the gamma knife center in Peoria. There is a spot that could be brain mets but it hasn’t changed recently. It will be more closely monitored if they find enhancement, gamma knife radiology would be the next step.

In other news: With a decent amount of trepidation, we changed Dan’s maintenance therapy. He stopped chemotherapy (an infusion of Alimta [pemetrexed] every three weeks) and started Alcensa [alectinib], an oral medication

He had success with Alimta for 30 months straight. It is no cakewalk, so somebody get this guy a trophy. I’m pretty sure he set a record anyway.

Despite the success, together with Dr. Kumar, we chose to have Dan begin taking Alcensa because his chronic infections were getting increasingly tough to manage and affecting his quality of life. Last year, Dan endured six months of recurring cellulitis with two hospitalizations for drip antibiotics. He has had five months of the infection so far this year with multiple outpatient drips and constant, increasingly stronger, oral antibiotics. My fear of an antibiotic-resistant super-infection began to really stress me out and Dan was tired of it all on top of chemo side effects every three weeks.

While there are patients who only have the option to stay on Alimta, Dan has a few more. So we are more than astoundingly grateful.

[Disclaimer: I’m going to go into these options and if that is boring, you can just skip ahead.]

He is one of the 5% of patients with adenocarcinoma NSCLC who have the ALK gene, and there are several targeted medicines for it, referred to as “ALK inhibitors.” The medicine turns the gene “off” to temporarily stabilize the cancer. The first of these, Xalkori [crizotinib], was developed by Pfizer and approved by the FDA in 2011. I say “temporarily” stop the cancer because the cancer inevitably resists the medicine. Because of this, Novartis developed Zykadia [ceritinib] as a second line treatment, offered in 2014 after only a mere three years from clinical trial to approval. (This year, Zykadia was also approved for first line treatment.) Along with Zykadia, Alcensa [alectinib] was developed by Chugai (Japan) and then also fast-tracked in the US for approval in 2015. That is the one we are going with first.

I want to emphasize; Three life-prolonging medicines were developed and approved for Dan’s specific cancer within four years. That is crazy.

Alcensa – structurally – there it is for any of you science nerds.


Four pills in the morning and four at night. Monthly, a bottle of these pills is delivered to us by FedEx requiring a signature. It retails for around $13,908.

Anyway, once the financial aid was approved, we took the leap and Dan took his first dose Friday, October 6th. So now we wait to see how/if it works and what side effects he will experience. Three weeks in, it is the usual suspects–fatigue and constipation–but no nausea. Edema continues, which increases the chance of cellulitis, but so far so good. His is still on his daily antibiotic. He will have blood draws every few weeks to keep an eye on the usual numbers as well as new liver and muscle enzymes to watch.

When he felt good, I think summer was pretty fun for Dan. He saw concerts and games in Chicago, golfed with Doug, took Raine to the family camper, watched Raine play soccer, and worked on a science treasure hunt with him.


And that’s the latest! More soon about what we’ve been up to and how Raine and I are doing. Thank you for taking the time to read this and for keeping us in your thoughts.


After MRI Results

Dan is super chill. There just isn’t much that can ruffle him. He gets scanxiety (scan anxiety) just like the best of us, but he never really worries or freaks out. The only way I know how to describe him to people is that he is “zen.” There’s not much that can ruffle his feathers. He keeps an even temper, always maintains his sense of humor, and is focused on the simple things each day.

I know this sounds super amazing–and I get that. However, I just have to share a caveat that I am MARRIED to him and have loved him for nearly 15 years and that which is the best about him is also what drives me crazy. Ha! But that’s another post. So, Dan’s lack of irrational decision making, impulsive reactions, and volatile emotional roller coaster rides gives ME the opportunity to do what I DO best. So here is a glimpse of our lives during the 24 hours following our latest MRI results.

6 Days prior to MRI results: Dan has routine scans, we proceed through the week as normal. I try to get all zen like him and sit on the patio, take in nature, and make sure we enjoy some sex before the chemo treatment (ALERT ALERT ALERT TMI WARNING: Dan is unable to have sex the week following treatment in order to protect me from the chemotherapy that would be transmitted.)

Instead of being super zen, we both end up eating a lot of ice cream, sleeping poorly, and getting into ridiculous arguments like, Who do the black sweatpants in the laundry room BELONG TO? Grandpa Don says they are not his–they have a drawstring and GD’s black sweatpants do not. Dan says he doesn’t even own sweatpants, black or no. When casual around the house, he only has a pair of pajama pants. I KNOW Dan actually has black sweatpants. Back and forth. Just claim the effing sweatpants!!!

On Wednesday at 11 am, I was at work while Dan was at the doctor office for results during an appointment with the onc before his chemo treatment. Jim and Char were in town for the results, so he wasn’t alone. (I don’t like it when he is alone and gets news. He was alone with his actual diagnosis and that haunts me.)

A new tumor in his brain that has sprouted and chillaxed since his last MRI requires a consultation with the oncology radiologist. Then we will decide if we want to do targeted radiation (as opposed to whole-brain radiation; this would isolate the cancerous cells) or wait and watch it.

He texted me immediately so I knew. I call and we chat.

I focus on my tasks at work. I keep busy and I do NOT think about it. All afternoon, my IBS kicks it into high gear. I steal a moment to text a few people the troubling news. Ugh. Once home from work, I begin consuming alcohol. I have a stellar Revolution IPA 12 pack in the fridge at my fingertips. The weather is nice so I sit on the patio and talk with a friend that I contacted immediately for such a day as this.

Like a genius, I decide to drink beer for dinner. Weget Raine to bed, and of course, he has no idea what is going on. We read, laugh, and cuddle. Dan chooses beer over ice cream and we finish off the second season of Master of None. That’s a really good show.



The following morning, I actually manage to get Raine to school on time while Dan takes a substitute teaching job. I worry about him being on his feet all day. At home, I sort through and organize all of our medical bills, only to abandon them instead of paying them. I attend a (well-timed) therapy session, which has a two-fold gift; I cry with grief for the overwhelming and desperate desire to have my mom back, right before I enter the office. (I haven’t cried for her in a while so it was definitely needed.) And throughout the session, I become increasingly hopeful as I remember ways that I have been creative with writing and sculpture–and how that creativity helps me cope.

But then—A shopping binge at Target. Resume drinking at noon. Chat with my sweet friend on her porch.

Then I climb into bed, read, and then fall asleep. Sometimes that’s it—The crisp, cool sheets, a blanket with a familiar smell, and lazy reading with big, thick glasses. It’s medicinal.

Tomorrow is another day.


Podcast: “Fighting Cancer” from TED Radio Hour


A Lovely Leah Ruth approved glimpse at current cancer research perspectives.

At certain moments in time, I do like reading books, listening to podcasts, or watching documentaries related to the science of cancer. It is helpful for me in mitigating the anger and depression while knowing loved ones who died, are actively dying, or living precariously with the disease, like Dan.

For someone who completely hated the subject of science in school for 20 years, I really am fascinated by it now and really geek out often with certain subjects. Expect me to share what I find–good or bad–more in this space.

I listened to this podcast today while driving to and from work. I like to hear the individual voices who are in the science labs and doing the tedious research and problem solving. You will probably never be surprised that they are nearly always motivated by personal experiences with cancer.

This one gives a good glimpse at a few of them. And they also impact Dan and his type of cancer directly, so it is comforting to hear about the work being done. Even if it isn’t enough, or quickly enough…It is just good to know.


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